I came downstairs found the sink full of dirty dishes! Got annoyed by the look of it! Gradually, a stream of thoughts came rushing to inquire, Am I off balance? Am I incompetent in maintaining my household? Am I not a good homemaker?

While these thoughts were pounding my brain out of my skull, my eyes wandered at the drying pan with clean dishes, they looked clean at a cursory look, but then when I looked closer, they were hideous! Burnt oil stains were shining and making my soul gloomier. I asked to myself, why are my dishes dirty?

The thoughts of not doing enough solidified! Making me slide even deeper into a dark zone! Take two, I found myself cleaning the dishes so forcefully that the handles of the vessels were going to fall off. My neck and shoulders were straining and pressed me to slow down. The slowness yielded in a shift of thought process, really what are you trying to clean up here – dishes or something else? It is something else, a voice within me confirmed. What is that something else, I responded? That voice went silent. That quietness was a reflective silence!

Reflection told me its ok that dishes are dirty, that does not make you a bad homemaker. You gave away yourself so hard to certain challenges in your life, that your body needs a pause, but your responsibilities keep showing up daily, and there is a body- mind gap currently due to pull and push in different directions. This push and pull are causing your brain to slip in a downward spiral. You just need to see what needs to be done now to get to your priority. To determine your priority, you need to ask what is it that is bothering you really, under the surface of dirty dishes?

My body needs energy, my brain needs a long breath. I need to work out daily! Forget about the dirty dishes! Get your soul, mind, and body in a rhythm with nature. For that you need to have a dogged discipline and show up for yourself even when you think you cannot. Just show up for 5 mins on that yoga mat daily! You built strength slowly and steadily to do what is important to you. I do not promise there will not be any dirty dishes piling anymore, but I can promise this that if you show up for yourself daily, you will be able to manage the dirty dishes piling on your life with a positive mindset.

I smiled and did what needed to be done at this moment and showed up for myself – 5 mins today. Hopefully more tomorrow!

Dirty dishes are still there, but I am not bothered by it today!  

Love,

A Tiny Villa on a Hill     

I found this lovely song called ‘Dirty Dishes’ by a lovely artist ‘Scotty McCreery’. Please chek it out.